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Friday, September 23, 2005
heys.
sorry if i haven't been blogging.
gotta go on hiatus soon,
the exmas are freaking drawing near and i'm not even ready for my art exam.
cause tht rosie loh has not given me my print outs.
i need them for my prep work.
she has a deprived childhood i suppose.
she played with too much makeup til she forgot her colour combinations.
harhar.
oh yar.
thanks for your taggs!!
i really appreciate it.
i seriously need to brush up on my mathematics.
i'm so blur that i can't even understand the english language.
harhar.
that must sound stupid.
but that's me/
harhar.
haiii
i need to CRAM.
had history test today.
gonna flunk it.
for a blarrsy ten mark question.
i only wrote four lines of the fulscap paper.
nonsense is my answer.
DINGDONG!
what am i suppose to do?
gotta get back up on my feet i guess.
bury me and fade to black.
`break my bones, tear my limbs, dig out my eyes, slit my throat and slash my wrists but don't ever break my heart`
i see death in life and life in death
4:29 PM
Friday, September 16, 2005
wello!!
YAY!! i finally changed my skin into a nicer one.
thanks to my cuz DIL.credit goes to you tooyeah.
and to BE!! thanks for helping me chosse mylayout with the comments and all.
thanks a million.
in dil's house now. coolness!! we're crazy when the three of us are together.
harhar. you have no idea. we're dancing to TECHNO. TECHNO.CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??
harhar. and we turned into porn stars dancing to DontCha. and then we turned emo singing the sad songs.
mixed emotions i guess. but i love them the most in the world. they make me smilethough i'm crying on the inside. they love me for who i am. and will always be there for me and i know that.
thanks you guys for being there for me when i really needed help to get back up on my feet. i'll be there for you too. when you breathe, i wanna be the air for you. forever yes? we'll be together soon. living together happily without anything bothering us especially BRATS. harhar.
so here's my new blogskin.
a nice one indeed.
i love it.
and the taggeh is fraking cool!!
oh and peeps. please send me your links via sms or tagso i can see them.
thankies.
bye.
_lost in eric dravern_
i see death in life and life in death
6:07 PM
Thursday, September 15, 2005
HELLO.
i'm back and i'm glad i am.
so now i changed my blogskin finally. i really like it. cool don'tcha think?
anyways.
life has been pretty normal for me.
i went back to GOD but i still have abit of the dark side with me.
i'm on the way there i guess.
hmph.
people nowadays are just too much.
they tell you what they think about you and just snap at you without even thinking about how you would feel.
and obviously it hurts and scars you so deep that you can barely live.
and yet they still want to be friends with you.
i mean don't get me wrong.
it's absolutely okay to be friends but things will never be the same again would it?
i was just stating my point there so yarr.
oh. i'm not really done with my blogskin.
but just bear with it yar..
at least msg me your links or something so i have the new ones.
wooohooo!!
exams are nearing.
gotta mug.
okay. just wanna say hi to my cuzs out there. i <3>
i haven't had the time to change my blog so please bear with this one for awhile longer cause i seriously have no time.. at all. cause of my dance trainings and all and plus my schoolwork, the workload is getting heavier by the day. so again i apologise if there are any misconceptions of any sort.
yesterday i was abit blur and most of the time i didn't know what i was doing. hahah. i even forgot my dance steps and the cue of when to go on and everything. i was abit pissed at myself. heh. i couldn't concentrate in class as well. kinda irritating but it was worth it. at least i think so.
to day after school i gotta get home. get well dressed and gotta meet mummeh cause i gotta take my picture for my new ez link card. hehh. this shit sucks. i still have alot of work to do and other shit as well.
i didn't think life would be so complicating and misleading.
okay i dont make any sense.
bye.
SaTaN wAs HeRe :)
well. what can i say about life.
the holidays were a breeze. everything went by quickly and i only went out once which is utter nonsense cause it was NOT a holiday for me at all. many feelings erupted inside of me. hahah. okay i'm being unreasonable.
anyway. school began and hell was dwelling on earth in my world. everyday was like atragedy to live in. went to school with blue eyes and i didn't get caught YET. but even if i do. you think i will listen?? heh. of course not. nowadays i sleep at arouond one something or two something in the morning. and i get up at five. so that's like only three or four hours of sleep which to me is enough for a shit up person like me. i don't deserve sleep or rest.
yesterday was a incontrollable and a dying day for me. i really dnt wish to explain cause it's kind of sadistic and it would be rather disturbing to your eyes and your imagination. heh. went for a gig on monday. the cereal killers played and everyone was good. hahah. it was fun. yepp. and i ate PLASTER PRATA for the first time. heh. i couldnt finissh it though cause i lost my appetite cause of someone's eating mannerisms. gross piece of cow dung.
i guess that's about it and i WILL change my layout soon when i have the proper amount of time. and of course MYCHEMICALROMANCE will be featured 0n the skin. heh.
gotta scoot now. need to fucking check my friggin email. bummer.
the damned will look after me forever.
heh..
SaTaN wAs HeRe. :)
bye.
there's no truth about anything in this world.
it's how you perceive it.
i see death in life and life in death
4:41 PM
Thursday, July 07, 2005
it's actually history now and i'm at the library cause the ignorant teacher didn't come.so yeah imma update THE blog.
i haven't had the time to change my blog so please bear with this one for awhile longer cause i seriously have no time.. at all. cause of my dance trainings and all and plus my schoolwork, the workload is getting heavier by the day. so again i apologise if there are any misconceptions of any sort.
yesterday i was abit blur and most of the time i didn't know what i was doing. hahah. i even forgot my dance steps and the cue of when to go on and everything. i was abit pissed at myself. heh. i couldn't concentrate in class as well. kinda irritating but it was worth it. at least i think so.
to day after school i gotta get home. get well dressed and gotta meet mummeh cause i gotta take my picture for my new ez link card. hehh. this shit sucks. i still have alot of work to do and other shit as well.
i didn't think life would be so complicating and misleading.
okay i dont make any sense.
bye.
SaTaN wAs HeRe :)
i see death in life and life in death
10:47 AM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
haven't been updating in such a long time and i apologise for the inconvenience and any mishaps that happened while viewing the sadist Cassandra Jean Spykerman James Augustin.
well. what can i say about life.
the holidays were a breeze. everything went by quickly and i only went out once which is utter nonsense cause it was NOT a holiday for me at all. many feelings erupted inside of me. hahah. okay i'm being unreasonable.
anyway. school began and hell was dwelling on earth in my world. everyday was like atragedy to live in. went to school with blue eyes and i didn't get caught YET. but even if i do. you think i will listen?? heh. of course not. nowadays i sleep at arouond one something or two something in the morning. and i get up at five. so that's like only three or four hours of sleep which to me is enough for a shit up person like me. i don't deserve sleep or rest.
yesterday was a incontrollable and a dying day for me. i really dnt wish to explain cause it's kind of sadistic and it would be rather disturbing to your eyes and your imagination. heh. went for a gig on monday. the cereal killers played and everyone was good. hahah. it was fun. yepp. and i ate PLASTER PRATA for the first time. heh. i couldnt finissh it though cause i lost my appetite cause of someone's eating mannerisms. gross piece of cow dung.
i guess that's about it and i WILL change my layout soon when i have the proper amount of time. and of course MYCHEMICALROMANCE will be featured 0n the skin. heh.
gotta scoot now. need to fucking check my friggin email. bummer.
the damned will look after me forever.
heh..
SaTaN wAs HeRe. :)
i see death in life and life in death
12:24 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
i can forget but HE will never be forgotten.
hello people.
sorry for not updating.
have been really busy with everything especially the exams
which are finally over!!
so many things have been happening.
but it's very difficult to explain.
my life has been a mixture of happiness and depression.
sometimes i feel so happy yet deprived and drained.
how could this happen to me?
i have been drifting away from GOD.
i have doubted and have been doubting his existence.
i have no specific idea what is haappening to me.
is satan dominating me?
or has he already taken over me?
does my soul now belong to him?
happy happy
went to sentosa on monday.
and it was fun!!!
hahah. got abit tanned.
abit only or else i'll look like some dark chocolate.
hehe.
so much for happiness.
DRIFTING AWAY FROM EVERYTHING
apart from GOD. i have been drifting away from so many other things
and people as well.
i seriously have no idea what's going on with me.
oh and guess what.
HE left me.
silently.
leaving me with all these wounds that he has caused.
he scarred me man.
the worst thing is he did it silently.<
no words can describe the way i am feeling now.
nothing can describe it.
nothing can and nothing ever will.
shoutouts.
to my two cuzs:
you two are the most important people in my life.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!
thanks for being there for me and understanding me.
we must go out on monday aighht??
<. it's all about you.>
*grins*
to everyone else:
take care of yourselves and do tag aighht.
you need to click on the "TAG" button to view the tagboard.
see you around and i WILL update more often.
`to the damned i go`
leave me deprived and drained
*you are my beautiful nightmare*
i see death in life and life in death
6:30 AM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
hmmm.
sorry i haven't been updating lately, kind of busy with school and stuff. oh gosh i miss someone so badly.
life has pretty much been the same. but i think it has become better in a way. in reality, i actually have no idea what's going on in my life.
i'm just really in my own world nowadays that i don't really
realise what's happening to me or the people around me. it
just really hurts that sometimes i think i'm really numb to feel
anything.
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
than what am i feeling
what am i doing wrong
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that I have in my heart
isn't this song super?
i'm soo in love with it.
there's another song.
over by lindsay lohan.
it keeps ringing in my head.
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted
Trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning
and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
yep. it's nice.
but why these songs.
why?
i seriously have no idea.
hahah.
before i end.
blurry by puddle of mudd
keeps ringing in my head too.
i think i need help.
Everyone is changing,
there’s no one left that’s real
So make up your own ending,
and let me know just how you feel
Cause I am lost with out you,
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you,
I stumbled and I crawly
ou could be my someone
you could be my scene
You know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you’re doin
I wonder where you are
There’s oceans in between us
but that’s not very far
i see death in life and life in death
11:25 AM